Pregnancy progress and the stuff no one tells you about.

Well it’s been quite a few weeks since I posted any progress on my pregnancy, so I thought why not let you in on what’s been going on in my world as of late.

Now I wish I could write about how care free, relaxed and easy this pregnancy has been, but unfortunately I haven’t quite settled into this role as easily as I thought I would. I suppose what I’m trying to say is that you can’t really prepare for how your body will react and how your mind will adapt.

Pregnancy will be different for every woman, some have an easy ride, while others suffer the entire 9 months. While I personally have struggled, I am trying to see the light in the dark and sharing my experiences on my blog helps me to understand that there’s other pregnant sisters out there going through the same thing.

I’m three quarters through the second trimester now, and there’s been some things going on that I didn’t expect, and that’s because no one tells you about it.

Well, here’s a heads up for all you mamas to be…

Beware of the white top! 

Let’s talk nipples! One of the first ‘symptoms’ of pregnancy for me was changes to my nipples. They get big, real big, and a whole lot darker! At about 15 weeks it was clear my boobs had grown and my bras were just not fitting me anymore, so my husband took me shopping to get fitted for some new maternity bra’s. Turns out I had gone up two cup sizes which just blew my mind! Anyway… The next day I put on my new white maternity bra and wore a white fitted singlet over the top. Hubby and I were out and about for the whole day, until I caught my reflection in a window and noticed two dark spots on my top – It was my nipples! My white bra and white singlet couldn’t even hide these bad boys, and yet I had been out all day flashing these big brown babies to everyone. No wonder the old man at the petrol station was so happy to see me that day!

Sneezing may cause leakage freakage. 

Have you ever pee’d yourself in public? I hadn’t, except for when I was in prep and I wet myself on the basketball court because I was too scared of the grade 6’s hanging out in the toilets… but when you’re a 30 year old woman, you don’t expect it to happen to you. The first time (yes it has happened more than once now) hubby and I were down at the park with our pooches having a glorious time, until I got heyfever and began to sneeze. Next minute I had wee running down my leg. I imediatley walked awkwardly up to hubby and said ‘babe, we need to go home, I’ve had an accident’. Now I carry spare undies in my handbag.

Burn baby burn.

I feel there’s so many stages of pregnancy, first I was sick and couldn’t eat, then I got hungry for anything and everything, and now I can’t eat much at all without getting full really quickly. It’s so weird! In the last couple weeks I’ve been getting heart burn after most meals which in my eyes is nearly as bad as morning sickness. The constant feeling of needing to burp, but if you try force a burp you end up vomitting. Or the burning acid taste in the back of your throat. The worst was when I had tomato soup for dinner and then laid down on the couch just after. After about a minute tomato soup was nearly all over the floor. Hello acid reflux! I often have to get my husband to ‘burp’ me like you would a new born after they’ve guzzled milk – funnily enough as kind of weird as it is, it actually works!

Weird dreams.

I can guarantee that every night I will have a bizarre dream. Like I mean my dreams involve some crazy and twisted stuff. Like the time I gave birth to a dashound. Or the time I was a professional rapper, and I was famous! Last night I dreamt of eating curry while riding on a dolphin at sea world! I don’t know where these dreams come from, but damn! I usually wake up just thinking ‘what the?!’

Leg cramps sent from the devil. 

WOW! I have never experienced leg cramps like I have in the recent weeks. Leg cramps so bad you can’t even straighten your foot out to stand up. And they last for a good 20 minutes. There’s nothing quite like being all cozy in bed and you roll over or stretch out and then BAM! and you think ‘This is it, this is how it ends!’

I can also advise, do not, I repeat do not check your weight on the scales. I’ve hit the 10kg mark and I’ve told my husband I don’t want to know anymore! Its hard to see your weight hitting numbers you’ve never been before in your life!

The hormones are definitely raging at the moment, because I will literally cry at anything. Especially when I fluff in front of my hubby! Oh yes, no one tells you that you become a farty mc fart bum when pregnant!

Things seem to be really moving along quite quickly, In just a couple weeks i’l be in the third trimester! We’ve had our hospital admission interview, booked in our birthing classes, and my babyshower is currently being organised. I wish time would slow down, I need more time to prepare myself, I still feel like I’m just getting my head around it all.

I’m still so fearful of the birth, but I’m trying to be open minded about it all. I’m looking forward to attending a calm birth workshop we booked in a few weeks time, I really feel I will benefit a lot from it. Not sure it will ease the thoughts about pooping during delivery though!

Apart from all the ugly stuff, knowing I’m healthy and that bub is growing well and everything is looking very normal and good, makes me feel at ease. My obstetrician is so lovely and all the midwives at the hospital seem incredibly patient, caring and helpful so I know I’m in good hands.

I’m feeling baby move more and more every week as she grows bigger, sometimes it’s a little freaky and uncomfortable, especially when it feels like she’s kicking my cervix, but it’s a nice feeling knowing that there is actually a person growing inside of you. It makes all the icky stuff worth it.

X Jes

The Universe will always give you what you need.

I can not preach this any more than I do already. The Universe works in mysterious ways, and whether or not you are spiritually awakened to see her magic before your very own eyes, trust me when I say the Universe always has your back!

I have so many stories that I could share about the many different ways the Universe has worked her magic into my life, but there’s one story I really want to share with you today and that’s my pregnancy. Yes, you read it right, I’m pregnant!

In April 2017, I had just returned from an overseas adventure and went to see a clairvoyant to help clarify a few things going on in my life. Everything that came up in my reading has now come true. During my reading she picked up on my secret elopement marriage that was taking place in October, and also told me of two spirits hovering above me. The two spirits are my unborn children she advised. She told me all about their personalities, and what kind of people they will be. She mentioned that once my husband and I were ready to start a family that it would happen very quickly and easily because the spirits of my children are ready and waiting.

Once October rolled around and my now husband and I got married, I began to focus my thoughts and intentions on starting a family. I would pray, I started preparing my body with the right nutrition and vitamins and even began to create ‘space’ in my life by decluttering and removing things that no longer served me.

November arrived, and one evening I found myself sitting in a Yin Yoga class. During the last pose called Savasana, which is where you lay flat on your back with your eyes closed. This pose is basically like a form of meditation, where you tap into your unconcious thoughts in a semi-meditative state. The pose is held for around five minutes, so not enough time to fall asleep, but enough time to surrender and let your body sink into the ground. During savasana that evening, I had the most vivid dream. A dream that felt so real that tears fell from eyes. This dream just came to me, I didn’t think about it or plan on going there… It just happened!

In my dream, as I was laying on the floor, thick green leafy vines began to wrap themselves around my legs and arms, rooting me to the ground where I felt safe and held. From my stomach a stem started to form, and grew tall reaching for the sky. A huge, magnificent flower bloomed from the stem, and sitting inside the flower was the most beautiful, happy baby I had ever seen in my life. I had never felt so much love or emotion, it was so intense. Looking at this child brang tears to my closed eyes, I was inlove. The petals of the flower began to slowly close over and wrapped up the baby so delicately and safely. The stem then decended straight down into my stomach and the vines began to unravel themselves. In that moment, Savasana was over and it was end of class.

I knew it was a message for me, because I could feel it deep in my soul.

The days following my yoga class I had numerology signs showing up everywhere. 1111, 222 and 444, all indicating my prayers have been heard and everything is in place, that I’m on the right path, and the angels are by my side.

Two weeks later I found out I was pregnant.

I know there would be people who would read this and think I’m delusional or just don’t believe in anything spiritual. But for me, this has been the most magical and incredible thing I’ve ever experienced and my faith has only grown stronger. Being spiritually awakened means you are more intune with your life, soul, spirit and the universe which allows you to see and understand the wonderful plan that’s in place for you.

The universe has a plan for everyone, it’s just up to you whether you choose to tap into that energy, let go of control, surrender and just be guided. Nothing will change if you’re gripping on so tight and want to be in control of every situation, it’s not how it works.

All in all, My husband and I are very excited to meet our daughter in August this year.

I’d love to hear your story or experience of the universe delivering abundance in your life. Leave your comments below.

XX Jes